12 Weeks-the blood test results

I hope to write this down so I never forget. I hope one day I can look at this post and laugh. But February 16th 2017 will be a day that will forever be engraved in my mind.

Steve and I took Landon to Disneyland and we were all having a great time. I knew that my blood test results might come in while we were in California. I was hoping they would. I planned on buying either a boy or girl outfit to surprise my family with the news. We were standing in line for the monsters inc. ride when my Ob's office called. I answered, and they said to me, "Is there any way you can come right now. We just received your blood results and would like you to come in to discuss these with your doctor." I told her I was out of town and wouldn't be returning till the next week. She then wanted me to come in as soon as we got home. I asked her "Why? Is there something wrong?" She says "No, but your doctor just likes to review these results in person." I was relieved when she said nothing was wrong, but deep down I knew something wasn't right.

I decided I couldn't take not knowing. I decided to txt my doctor and ask him myself if he could tell me the results. He told me he was skiing and that he would call me when he got back with the results. That was fine since we were still going on rides. I later got a txt saying Laura I've reviewed your blood results call me when you get a minute. I told him i was about to get on a ride and if i could call him after. His reply was no. Please call me when you get back to your hotel. I knew it. I knew something wasn't right. We got dinner and Steve convinced me I needed to call right then. We found a quiet place where he broke the news to me.

At the beginning it was small talk, and then he told me the results. "I wanted to let you know that you are pregnant with a baby girl." "She has also tested positive for down syndrome."

What? Me? Why? Why was this happening to me? Were the only thoughts that were in my head. I didn't even hear the rest of the conversation. I heard the words down syndrome and my life shattered into a million pieces.

I cried and cried and cried some more. It was harder to break the news to my family. So many questions came up that I had no answer to. The whole trip to disneyland was a blur.

Which brings me to today. February 22. Today I had my first Ob appointment since finding out. It was hard. I cried a lot. The doctor teared up. It's a hard thing to face. He told me the game plan, that we will be starting to see maternal fetal medicine at 15 weeks. We will be meeting with genetic counselors and a more in depth ultrasound. Especially of the heart. We will also be getting an amniocentesis. On top of this I have my blood pressure to worry about. I've lost weight and hope to not lose more. I found out my chances of miscarriage at this point are extremely high. Lots and lots of unknown.

I'm gratefully to our families, friends and co-workers who have reached out with loving word of encouragement. Especially to my husband. He has had nothing but love for this baby down syndrome or not. Im trying to be more like him.

Baby #2 Continued

Im officially 10 weeks and 5 days along.  I got sick just like last time at 6 weeks exactly. I feel like crap 99 percent of the time. It's hard to say if this is like my last pregnancy since i don't really remember how I felt last time. I will say last time was a lot easier because if i woke up sick I would just go straight back to bed. I plan on doing weekly updates again only this time I will be starting at 12 weeks since I'm not really showing yet, just super bloated.

This is how we announced on social media only the chalk board had writing on it

My official Due Date is September 5, 2017. We went in for our first ultrasound a couple of weeks ago and baby was measuring 2 days ahead. If my next appointment the baby is still big we might up my due date. Either way they told me I will most likely be delivering in August. Hoping my blood pressure stays down this time around. At my appointment my blood pressure was 159/75 and then after sitting for awhile it was 129/72. Typical me. I got my blood drawn a couple of days ago, and we find out whether we are having a boy or girl this week or next. The test also tells you if there are any anomalies. Hoping for a happy healthy baby. Can't wait to find out!

All about baby #2

It's been awhile since I have updated this blog. To be quite honest I forgot all about it till I found out I was pregnant again and wanted to see what my last pregnancy was like. So here is a quick update on life and all about this baby.

We sold our house in August and we moved to a small apartment. I can't stand this place. We were searching for a new place to live the week we moved in. We found a cute little area up the street from us called Vineyard. We put money down on a lot and we are just waiting for our house to be finished. Which seriously can't be soon enough. Right now they are telling us our house will be done in May. Crossing our fingers.

Last Day at our Provo house!

Landon Started Pre-School in August at Kids Village in Orem. It has been the biggest blessing. He wasn't talking at all. We had a speech therapist and an Occupational therapist coming to see him twice a month with no improvement. We finally called it quits and told them it wasn't working out. The week he started pre-school he started to repeat words we would say and now fast forward to February he is now talking in full sentences. We will forever be grateful for Miss Cassy and Landon LOVES her.

First Day of Pre-School and a little sad to be leaving Dad

Pre-School pictures for the school year 2016-2017

Now fast forward to December 2016. Steve and I had talked about having another baby, and we had been trying for a few months. I was started to get discouraged thinking this might be taking longer than we had originally planned. With Landon all I had to do was think about having a baby and boom! I was pregnant. I kept telling Steve if i wasn't pregnant this month then we would stop trying for another year. I had taken a pregnancy test about five days early and I got a negative. And that was that. We would wait another year before trying again. It was Christmas eve and I kept thinking, this would be the best Christmas present to Steve if I really was pregnant. Before bed I went to the bathroom, peed on a stick, so while i was brushing my teeth I glanced down and Boom POSITIVE. I was shocked. I went right in to tell Steve. He was so excited we hugged, and then it sank in... Im pregnant. Can I even do this again?

Landon Turns 1

I have come to the realization that blogging is a lot harder with a busy baby.  But here I am again. 

February 11, 2015...I have a one year old. 

As I have been looking back on this past year, it has got to be one of the hardest, but also one of the best years of my life. 

I still can't believe I will have a toddler this year. So crazy. 

Landons Milestones.

Landon started crawling 4 weeks before his birthday... I have a feeling walking is going to take a while as well.

We will find out how much Landon weighs tomorrow at the doctors, and find out what percentile he is in... I always find it fun to see how your child compares. 

He doesn't love food as much as he used to! He lets us know when he is full by spitting it out all over. 

His favorite foods are, fruit pouches, mac and cheese, toast, and oatmeal. 

He loves to stand! Any opportunity he gets he is standing. 

He hates walking with the walker he got for his birthday. 

Landon loves to crawl away as fast as he can when we are changing his diaper or getting dressed.

He loves to watch the toilet flush.

He loves the water! And any chance he can get to stand in the tub while it's filling up.

Landon learned to shake his head "No." Tonight I asked him "Do you love mommy?" and he shakes his head no. I'm hoping he learns yes soon. : (

He is such a happy and curious little boy. We love him so much and wish time would slow down 

2014 Review

I can't believe we are in a new year already. 

This past year has flown by. Im convinced the older I get the faster time goes.

Here is my past year in review.

January

I was told I was still a high risk pregnancy. I would be having non stress tests twice a week, with blood work once a week and a urinalysis once a week. When I got that phone call I was so scared. I didn't want all of these test done, but in the end the doctors office became my second home.

February

The Biggest Event of 2014. Landon Suprise made me a mom on February 11. Bringing him home from the hospital was the scariest experience of my life. I didn't know how to take care of a baby, let alone a 5 pounder. Steve was a huge help to me. I can't believe it was almost 11 months ago I was up all night not knowing when I would ever see sleep again.

March

I saved every penny of my paycheck to finally pay off our car. Only a week later to find out we had forgotten to put oil in it. DUMB!!! We ended up buying a new car, that I think we both have liked so much better. I also returned back to work.

April

Landons first Easter. And starting to get the hang of this whole mom thing

May

We blessed our sweet Landon. 

June

We moved! We finally had a place of our own. Although it is a major project. We hope to sell it in a couple of years and move closer to Steves job out in Midway. 

July

Went with Stevens Family on a little vacation to California. Landon got to experience the beach, SeaWorld, and his first MLB game. He is a dodgers fan already :) 

August/September

Slow months. Not much happened. Steve went back to school.

October

I celebrated my 25th birthday, and our 4th wedding anniversary!

November

Happy 26th birthday to Steve. Landon also got his first hair cut

December

I woke up in the worst pain of my life. I thought I had the flu. Went to the emergency room because the pain wouldn't go away, I ended up having an appendectomy. 

This year has been one of the best of my life. And I can't wait to see what comes our way this year!

8 month old Landon...really late...

8 Months Old!

 Is this real life? Do I really have an eight month old who will be nine months in 6 days?!

7 month Landon

This month went by WAY too fast!

We took Landon to the pediatricians office to rule out a possible ear infection, turns out he is 18.15lbs!!

 Landon has starting watching us eat very closely. He wants everything we eat! If you don't give him a bite he starts getting a little angry!

 He stopped taking so many naps. Which i was a little surprised for. He still won't sleep through the night ever since he got his teeth in. We think he is getting his top teeth in as well. Here is to another round of teething.

 We mastered sitting up this month!!! 

 Landon's favorite thing to do now, is when he gets excited about something he starts clapping his hands. It seriously is the cutest thing ever.

 Landon barely survived his first swiss days. He was so grouchy the whole time, he finally fell asleep and we were able to do a little bit of shopping. We bought him a cute book set with different animals.

 He still likes to eat! So far everything we give him he likes. Even if he make a gross face he goes back for more, and ends up loving it. crazy kid

 We got Landon a new high chair. He loves being able to hit the tray when we have lunch or dinner.

 This outfit is 12 month size!!! He is growing up so fast

 Happy 7 months my love xoxo