Wednesday, February 22, 2017

12 Weeks-the blood test results

I hope to write this down so I never forget. I hope one day I can look at this post and laugh. But February 16th 2017 will be a day that will forever be engraved in my mind.

Steve and I took Landon to Disneyland and we were all having a great time. I knew that my blood test results might come in while we were in California. I was hoping they would. I planned on buying either a boy or girl outfit to surprise my family with the news. We were standing in line for the monsters inc. ride when my Ob's office called. I answered, and they said to me, "Is there any way you can come right now. We just received your blood results and would like you to come in to discuss these with your doctor." I told her I was out of town and wouldn't be returning till the next week. She then wanted me to come in as soon as we got home. I asked her "Why? Is there something wrong?" She says "No, but your doctor just likes to review these results in person." I was relieved when she said nothing was wrong, but deep down I knew something wasn't right.

I decided I couldn't take not knowing. I decided to txt my doctor and ask him myself if he could tell me the results. He told me he was skiing and that he would call me when he got back with the results. That was fine since we were still going on rides. I later got a txt saying Laura I've reviewed your blood results call me when you get a minute. I told him i was about to get on a ride and if i could call him after. His reply was no. Please call me when you get back to your hotel. I knew it. I knew something wasn't right. We got dinner and Steve convinced me I needed to call right then. We found a quiet place where he broke the news to me.

At the beginning it was small talk, and then he told me the results. "I wanted to let you know that you are pregnant with a baby girl." "She has also tested positive for down syndrome."

What? Me? Why? Why was this happening to me? Were the only thoughts that were in my head. I didn't even hear the rest of the conversation. I heard the words down syndrome and my life shattered into a million pieces.

I cried and cried and cried some more. It was harder to break the news to my family. So many questions came up that I had no answer to. The whole trip to disneyland was a blur.

Which brings me to today. February 22. Today I had my first Ob appointment since finding out. It was hard. I cried a lot. The doctor teared up. It's a hard thing to face. He told me the game plan, that we will be starting to see maternal fetal medicine at 15 weeks. We will be meeting with genetic counselors and a more in depth ultrasound. Especially of the heart. We will also be getting an amniocentesis. On top of this I have my blood pressure to worry about. I've lost weight and hope to not lose more. I found out my chances of miscarriage at this point are extremely high. Lots and lots of unknown.

I'm gratefully to our families, friends and co-workers who have reached out with loving word of encouragement. Especially to my husband. He has had nothing but love for this baby down syndrome or not. Im trying to be more like him.

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Baby #2 Continued

Im officially 10 weeks and 5 days along.  I got sick just like last time at 6 weeks exactly. I feel like crap 99 percent of the time. It's hard to say if this is like my last pregnancy since i don't really remember how I felt last time. I will say last time was a lot easier because if i woke up sick I would just go straight back to bed. I plan on doing weekly updates again only this time I will be starting at 12 weeks since I'm not really showing yet, just super bloated.
This is how we announced on social media only the chalk board had writing on it
My official Due Date is September 5, 2017. We went in for our first ultrasound a couple of weeks ago and baby was measuring 2 days ahead. If my next appointment the baby is still big we might up my due date. Either way they told me I will most likely be delivering in August. Hoping my blood pressure stays down this time around. At my appointment my blood pressure was 159/75 and then after sitting for awhile it was 129/72. Typical me. I got my blood drawn a couple of days ago, and we find out whether we are having a boy or girl this week or next. The test also tells you if there are any anomalies. Hoping for a happy healthy baby. Can't wait to find out!


All about baby #2

It's been awhile since I have updated this blog. To be quite honest I forgot all about it till I found out I was pregnant again and wanted to see what my last pregnancy was like. So here is a quick update on life and all about this baby.

We sold our house in August and we moved to a small apartment. I can't stand this place. We were searching for a new place to live the week we moved in. We found a cute little area up the street from us called Vineyard. We put money down on a lot and we are just waiting for our house to be finished. Which seriously can't be soon enough. Right now they are telling us our house will be done in May. Crossing our fingers.

Last Day at our Provo house!
Landon Started Pre-School in August at Kids Village in Orem. It has been the biggest blessing. He wasn't talking at all. We had a speech therapist and an Occupational therapist coming to see him twice a month with no improvement. We finally called it quits and told them it wasn't working out. The week he started pre-school he started to repeat words we would say and now fast forward to February he is now talking in full sentences. We will forever be grateful for Miss Cassy and Landon LOVES her.
First Day of Pre-School and a little sad to be leaving Dad

Pre-School pictures for the school year 2016-2017

Now fast forward to December 2016. Steve and I had talked about having another baby, and we had been trying for a few months. I was started to get discouraged thinking this might be taking longer than we had originally planned. With Landon all I had to do was think about having a baby and boom! I was pregnant. I kept telling Steve if i wasn't pregnant this month then we would stop trying for another year. I had taken a pregnancy test about five days early and I got a negative. And that was that. We would wait another year before trying again. It was Christmas eve and I kept thinking, this would be the best Christmas present to Steve if I really was pregnant. Before bed I went to the bathroom, peed on a stick, so while i was brushing my teeth I glanced down and Boom POSITIVE. I was shocked. I went right in to tell Steve. He was so excited we hugged, and then it sank in... Im pregnant. Can I even do this again?